The Shift my series in Vulnerability

     Big gulp, you can write this. Being a male vulnerability can be a difficult to express. To me vulnerability is the ability to express and handle all of your emotions. It's getting hot in here. As an Author in my first book 'Nobody Can Take It Away From You' I essentially laid bare my soul to the world. It was a difficult to put down on paper what I had experienced in my life to that point. Being an Author its a part of my function and purpose so it was a necessary step. Yet being vulnerable is still a battle. Honestly as I write this I feel a shortness in my breath, my body tenses, and I want to stop.

    However I'm not going to stop because there is a shift going on inside of me that is many parts amazing, many frightening, many I am saying fuck yeah to, many I am saying fuck no to! But here is the truth, I'm afraid. I am vulnerable and I am afraid, there I said it. I grew up in a time when boy's didn't cry. It's bull and boys should cry, I encourage them to cry, and society should support and encourage it. There is still to much of that old male philosophy in place and running the show. I have been crying a lot at night lately. You know what, it feels good, freeing. It is all apart of my shift I've been lead to and am walking out.

    I know all to well what holding that energy in can cause. I have never spoken much publicly or at length in my books about the sexual abuse I was subjected to. What purpose would it serve to describe how it all went down? To me it would only keep me in a negative loop of memories and shit I don't want. Here I am though going down that road because of the shift. What people don't realize is that vulnerability never leaves you. I have dealt with way more emotional release over the course of my life than I care to express. Healing it was and has helped me immensely. Because the abuse was a secret for many years I learned to bury all that emotional stuff way down inside. I was never going to be vulnerable again, boy's don't cry. I can't tell you how much I cried as a boy at night all alone, vulnerable.

     I'm not writing this for sympathy.So why this article now? Because men we need to talk. We need to express our emotions in a safe and healthy way. We need to understand that vulnerable is strong and vulnerable makes you more of a man than withholding vulnerability. We need to teach our boys that crying is alright and that vulnerability is strength. For them, the females they will encounter throughout their lives. For healthier relationships, workplaces, schools, Universities, maybe even the world. That is the shift I am experiencing and it's beautiful in a painful but freeing way.

God Bless

Daniel

"Changing The Shape Of Energy."